this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
the city that never sleeps
this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
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posted : Wednesday, October 20, 2010
title : way beyond control
no joke.
life is really way beyond our control. when i though things is starting to look great unexpected events have to happen and change your plans. i really want to be happy. not on the outside only. but on the inside. i want to laugh from my heart. rather than just making the sound or making the actions only. now my brother is ignoring all of us. really ignore. my dad. and me. call him don't answer. sms him don't reply. but that's alright. because at least he's safe. and with the help from his girlfriend we don't need to worry much. he kept too many things to himself. when i saw him everytime ever since their quarrel i could see the pain and hurt on his face. its upset me very much. i don't know why i can still be so normal. on the outside. work. eat. sleep. on the inside, i know something is seriously wrong. screw myself. :( then today my dad say after i can be independant he want to go. be free from the family and he might really be a monk. few years ago, i would think of ways to make him stay. but now? prefers its best to my dad do what he want. in this way then can he be truly happy. feeling very emotional now. but no one to confide to. except to this pathetic blog. i think our family member all the same. like to keep to ourself. many things have happened to me within this six months. i'm physically tired. really. can my heart take it anymore? i don't know. just that today i experience another heart ache. :( |
long to travel around the world.
