this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
the city that never sleeps
this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
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posted : Saturday, October 2, 2010
title : friends & work
yes, today my topic is on friends.
looking back, i have chosen to let go alot of my friends. and the excuse that i keep using is that i simply don't have the time to maintain every friendship. so now looking at their life through facebook or blog i feel like a stranger because i am no longer in their life and it make me sad. if time can go back i will try to hold on to every possible friend in my life. officially started work for a week. working is still better. can earn money and at the same time occupy my time so that i can stop thinking about questions that will not have any answer no matter how hard i think. questions about my life. if the book is true, then i can only blame myself for everything that's happening now. the situations im in now is because of what i think. i am the one that attracted them. good or bad life, its up to me to decide. but sometimes i cant help but wonder, what if? what if i have chosen NOT to move house, what if i have chosen other sec school, what if i have chosen different kind of friends, what if i have chosen to stay in local attachment rather than OIAP, what if i have chosen NOT to return astute to work... will my life be different? perhaps it will be different. just that for better or for worst, nobody will ever know. i yearn to be love. the reason i'm still here is because of love. but then again, i don't think i deserve to be love by anyone. :((( |
long to travel around the world.
