this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
the city that never sleeps
this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
this belongs to sally. a proud virgorian who lurves a good night sleep without dreams!
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posted : Sunday, August 22, 2010
title : thoughts.
turning 21 real soon.
another 10 more days. so been doing a lot of thinking these few days. and was turning real emotional on the inside. don't know since when i felt like crying every hours, minutes and seconds. sometimes i will really cry. to let it all out. but its always not enough. once i started, i can hardly stop myself. and then, i met this person who is leaving and might not come back. even though we had only know each other for a few months, i was sure somehow i will always remember this person. so i have been thinking and thinking and thinking... whats my life purposes? i know there are people more unfortunate then me. but these unfortunate people has their life purposes. they know what they want to do. and they want to live life to its fullest. hoping for a normal life. like this guy i posted on my facebook. armless pianist. say this: 要么赶紧死，要么精彩的活着. so he chose the later. so i question myself. and tell myself everyday that i am fortunate. at least i was given able hands and legs. sheltered from all sort of hardships. and was living quite a blissful and peaceful life. everything provided for. has parent that love her very much. that i would like to thank god for it. and i want to chose the later. 精彩的活着. i just don't know how to. this question keep haunting me. what's my life purposes? many people is able to do the world some help. and yet me a selfish girl only thinks about herself. maybe one day i will find out the answer. or maybe not. why i was chosen to live as a human? and what good could i do? i know its sin. but i just cant stop _____ myself. pondering.... |
long to travel around the world.
