ROADS N DIRECTIONS
2 and half year ago
i have chosen a road
its a straight road up to the ending
where my journey ends
but there is no other road on the way

and now i am half way through the journey
when i discover that maybe
i don't want to take this road anymore

the reason that i take that road in the first place
was because of my cousins n relatives
i want to prove to them i am the cleverer one
in the family and hope they will
STOP looking down on our family
especially one time when i saw
how my grandma (father's mother)
treated my father

but i suddenly realised
because of the reason that led me to this road
had led me choose the wrong road

Or maybe its not the road i want at all
so i am having doubts now
i have slow down and
wish to change my road

So right now
i am not sure whether to continue walking down this road
or change to another road
CONFUSED ):

SCHOOL LIFE
Today is the third week of school already
and now i can only say
i really REALLY MISS
yanlin and yingqi ):

and i really slack too much during the holidays
feeling this semster is choking me
breathless~~~~~

and those feelings are back
those " people are staring me" feeling
starting from the first step in step in NP
i keep having this feeling
and i started to really feel inferior
because of my big fat tummy
and my ugly face

when i am with my fren
i feel slight better
but the feeling won't totally go away

NEW PLANS
i desperately want a NEW PHONE!
but i was thinking of getting a smart phone
or a touch screen phone

and LASTLY
i want to slim downnnnnnnnnn~~~~
not much
just want to slim down on my tummy
because my tummy is really very big ):

CIAOS